I don't know why but all of a sudden I kind of feel overwhelmed. There is just so many things that I am doing and it can be pretty crazy at times.
In a way I feel like I am in reviewing mode again. I try to rewrite my notes so that they stick to my head more and well I also do it because I am slightly obsessive compulsive but in fairness to myself my handwriting during my review is not readable so I have to decipher it so that when I browse it then it would be easier for me to put it in my head.
I have these moments in my head wherein I just suddenly fast forward and have all these "what if's" and then the next thing I know I have an anxiety attack... that just happened and this is the reason why I am writing in my blog.
I absolutely cannot afford to fail this exam because if I do then that would just completely drive me crazy. I am not good in terms of accepting failure... when I try to do something I atleast make sure that my chances of succeeding is bigger as compared to actually failing.
Its hard when you are preparing for these kinds of exams because you have the slightest idea of what is going to come out and then the subject matter is so big so that drives me crazy. In a way it seems like I have the slightest idea on where to start.
I keep on convincing and trying to discipline myself that I can do this. But I am kind of optimistic and thats how I have always been most of my High School and College life.
I need to step up my game in terms of preparing for this exam. Its a matter of life and death for me. I need to psych myself up. I keep on thinking of reasons why I should pass this test and there are so many already...
I get to have a career, see my brother again, live the life that I have always wanted and well the other things are kind of shallow so I won't put it in here... those things are for another post.
Oh well for today I have finished reviewing my Psychiatric Nursing notes... and I think this is why I had an anxiety attack as well... i absorbed everything too much... this is just driving me nuts... all those medications and psych diseases... CRAZY!!!!
In a way I feel like I am in reviewing mode again. I try to rewrite my notes so that they stick to my head more and well I also do it because I am slightly obsessive compulsive but in fairness to myself my handwriting during my review is not readable so I have to decipher it so that when I browse it then it would be easier for me to put it in my head.
I have these moments in my head wherein I just suddenly fast forward and have all these "what if's" and then the next thing I know I have an anxiety attack... that just happened and this is the reason why I am writing in my blog.
I absolutely cannot afford to fail this exam because if I do then that would just completely drive me crazy. I am not good in terms of accepting failure... when I try to do something I atleast make sure that my chances of succeeding is bigger as compared to actually failing.
Its hard when you are preparing for these kinds of exams because you have the slightest idea of what is going to come out and then the subject matter is so big so that drives me crazy. In a way it seems like I have the slightest idea on where to start.
I keep on convincing and trying to discipline myself that I can do this. But I am kind of optimistic and thats how I have always been most of my High School and College life.
I need to step up my game in terms of preparing for this exam. Its a matter of life and death for me. I need to psych myself up. I keep on thinking of reasons why I should pass this test and there are so many already...
I get to have a career, see my brother again, live the life that I have always wanted and well the other things are kind of shallow so I won't put it in here... those things are for another post.
Oh well for today I have finished reviewing my Psychiatric Nursing notes... and I think this is why I had an anxiety attack as well... i absorbed everything too much... this is just driving me nuts... all those medications and psych diseases... CRAZY!!!!
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