Pink Notes: This Will Be My Year!

I have had a fair share of frustrations over the past years and I think they still keep on coming. Most of my frustration comes from my career. Prior to graduating, I've had everything mapped out. I was the most determined person you will meet. It's so surreal if you see me now I have no inch of confidence left in myself especially in my hopes and dreams.

Every time there is this obstacle that needs to overcome. Nothing ever came easy that was just my destiny. After graduating I passed Philippine RN licensure but I had to overcome the leakage exam issues of our batch which set me back with my plans and had to retake part of the examination. 

By the time I passed my USRN licensure, nurses were no longer needed in America or there was a lack of visas for foreign nurses. I invested so many years to making this happen and ended up nowhere. By the time I've accomplished this I am left with zero experience as a nurse. 

Thankfully, I got a job as a RN in one of the tertiary hospitals in Manila and now earned sufficient experience as a RN. And as much as the job is challenging I am thankful for the opportunity and continuously letting me grow with my profession.

I have no idea if my dreams of working overseas will still happen... a big part of me hope it does soon. But given the frustrations I've experienced these past years I learned to just take it one step at a time and not force myself too much on the situation.

In general, I think I've just learned to take things day by day as opposed to mapping out everything. I learn to deal with frustrations better in this frame of mind. I also decided that even if this might not be my year to get out of the country I have other things to look forward to and be happy about.

Its more than halfway through the year and this can still be my year. It might not be career wise but in some other aspects of my life. I kick myself in the butt for not thinking about this sooner I was so focused on my career that I forgot I actually have a LIFE! An actual life!

I'm not going to go all cray cray and break rules cause that just isn't me. I'm on a mission to self improvement and I still have a long way to go but I am slowly getting there. I've pretty much let go of myself these past years so now I am starting to really take care of myself. 

I rediscovered my love of book reading once again. I don't know if I should thank FSoG for it but as far as I remember its the book that got me started reading again. It was also the book that made me purchase eyeglasses with UV protection since it strained my eyes cause I could not drop that book (I read books on my iPad). 

I absolutely love the feeling that books give me. I live in a bubble every time I get to read a good book. Books give me the opportunity to convey emotions I might not necessarily be able to feel or express in my everyday existence. So thank you to all the wonderful authors for creating amazing stories!

I've met so many wonderful people on Twitter who enjoys reading as much as I do and its an honor meeting you guys. You know who you are and thanks for making book reading extra fun!

I still have tons of things to be thankful for despite my frustrations... and I will claim it this will be my year! 2012 will be a good year for me :)